Old News

so... i know it's been a while since i last posted. let's just say life's been busy! so, what has happened over the last couple weeks? kyle and stef returned home from africa, my cousin amy adopted a beautiful little girl mia, we've been remodeling our offices at work, our dog got fleas, school been busy, katy seems to be scheduled to work practially every night i have free, i bought a new car, we celebrated easter, etc. like i said, i've been busy. sometimes it's nice to take a break, look back over past events and see how they've effected you. so, i found an old journal of mine and decided to do just that. below are a few of those entries.

02-23-07

it's funny how we change as we get older, whether we like it or not. whether we even realize it or not. one day you're talking about the new pearl jam album over hornsby's, the next your discussing finances over a diet soda. as much as you'd like to not think of yourself as an adult, with responsibility and stress, could you really go back to the days of charging keystone light on your credit card? i'm excited about 'becoming' and adult, because i think i'm finally ready to embrace it, instead of just drinking it into submission.

02-26-07

today proved to be a day of rebuilding, or rising up from the rubble to face a new day. to allow time to refill our tear ducts! it's funny how, after a hard day, the next day always seems easier, no matter the challenges faced. you get up, talk to God, go to work, come home, go to bed... to often i forget that everyday is a different day, regardless of the monotony of it all. each day should be a new and exciting challenge, but unless God is on my heart constantly, i feel like its just the same old grind. the good thing is that it's taught me to keep God much closer to my heart and mind.

02-27-07

today was a long day, but a good day. i found myself talking to God today more than i ever have. not even asking him for favors, just talking, picking His brain, so to speak. and i guess in a way really having Him pick mine. i have really been seeking His strength. strength and vision as i try to see the person i am becoming and the person that i know He wants me to be. i have been feeling conflicted lately on relationships in my life. people that are close to me but far from Him. how do i relate and communicate His word and desires to them? mind the gap!

03-03-07

i must be the worlds worst at understanding and thinking about others feelings. katy tells me that all the time, but i guess i never understood that until tonight. so tonight at dinner at paesano's, i was talking about things kyle and i had done. i start talking about a very vivid memory and kyle doesn't hardly remember any of it. he said it happened during his parents divorce, so his mind basically blocked that time of his life. i had no idea how he felt. here i was, thinking we were having the time of our lives, only to learn 12 years later that he was miserable. i'm such a jerk!

03-06-07

today was a day of realizations. i realized what wonderful & supportive friends i have. i realized that i will do anything to keep katy from complaining, even if it means being whiney. i realized that an adult can still get bad pimples (or i realized that i'm still a kid, so in essence i realized nothing). i realized that people are too self absorbed to care what i'm doing. and i realized that greg is better at baseball than i ever was. i can hardly wait to see what tomorrow has waiting for me!