Worlds Apart

a few years back, i heard some skinny white guy with dreds and a bandana on his head play this song, and it changed my perception of what christian music "had" to sound like, forever. it was dark, it was mysterious, it was raw, it was emotional, it was broken, it was honest. it was exactly what i needed to hear in order to actually open my ears (and my heart) to what pretty much all christian music (often poorly) tries to communicate...that we're sinners and need Jesus in our lives. basically, i credit this song, and in many ways my friend daniel duce (the skinny white guy with dreds and bandana who played the song) for helping me realize that. this song really is a cry out for help and a thank you note all at once. "the battle between grace and pride".

this saturday morning, katy and our friend taylor will play this song (among others) for the church under the bridge san antonio, to a couple hundred people, most of them being homeless. they will play this song to the people who are dark, who are mysterious, who are emotional, who are broken. my prayer is that they'll receive it in the same way i did, as a cry out for help and a thank you...




i am the only one to blame for this
somehow it all ends up the same
soaring on the wings of selfish pride
i flew too high and like icarus i collide
with a world i try so hard to leave behind
to rid myself of all but love
to give and die

to turn away and not become
another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
of a world embracing every heartache

can i be the one to sacrifice
or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

to love you - take my world apart
to need you - i am on my knees
to love you - take my world apart
to need you - broken on my knees

all said and done i stand alone
amongst remains of a life i should not own
it takes all i am to believe
in the mercy that covers me

did you really have to die for me?
all i am for all you are
because what i need and what i believe are worlds apart

i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remain"
more and more i need you now,
i owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
i gave up not so long ago
so steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things i cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that i despise
speak the words i can't deny
watch the world i used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remains"
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things i cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart,
take my world apart
i pray, i pray, i pray
take my world apart